Inexpressive Me

 The INEXPENSIVE Me



How inexpressive I am—
I dialed my best friend’s number,
words stacked behind my teeth like traffic
at a red light I never cross.
I was ready to speak of what haunts me
through silent afternoons.
She believes in me, always has.
But I dressed my pain as something
more beautiful, more digestible—
like a flower trying to mask a scar.
Now it blooms again,
just as painfully.

How inexpressive I am
I hear a lot, what I don't like 
Or do not match my perspective. 
But can't say what I feel right. 
I just fear to hurt others.
Words are precious
I can't use them as a knife.


How inexpressive I am
I say I am ok to everyone
And I am ok too, maybe a few times.
Else thoughts are puzzling my mind. 
Caught up in a never-ending labyrinth.
Away from stars and sunlight.
And if someone asks me why. 
I hide deep inside the walls
That I've built up so high.

How inexpressive I am
When I am alone
I do what I like. 
I speak what I find right. 
But after crossing this circle 
I find no compassion full light. 
It's all dark and cold
Like the area under lamp
Even when the lamp is glowing bright. 



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