Inexpressive Me
The INEXPENSIVE Me
How inexpressive I am—
I dialed my best friend’s number,
words stacked behind my teeth like traffic
at a red light I never cross.
I was ready to speak of what haunts me
through silent afternoons.
She believes in me, always has.
But I dressed my pain as something
more beautiful, more digestible—
like a flower trying to mask a scar.
Now it blooms again,
just as painfully.
I dialed my best friend’s number,
words stacked behind my teeth like traffic
at a red light I never cross.
I was ready to speak of what haunts me
through silent afternoons.
She believes in me, always has.
But I dressed my pain as something
more beautiful, more digestible—
like a flower trying to mask a scar.
Now it blooms again,
just as painfully.
How inexpressive I am
I hear a lot, what I don't like
Or do not match my perspective.
But can't say what I feel right.
I just fear to hurt others.
Words are precious
I can't use them as a knife.
How inexpressive I am
I say I am ok to everyone
And I am ok too, maybe a few times.
Else thoughts are puzzling my mind.
Caught up in a never-ending labyrinth.
Away from stars and sunlight.
And if someone asks me why.
I hide deep inside the walls
That I've built up so high.
How inexpressive I am
When I am alone
I do what I like.
I speak what I find right.
But after crossing this circle
I find no compassion full light.
It's all dark and cold
Like the area under lamp
Even when the lamp is glowing bright.
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